Nonsense

Words enter my mind or are they just electrical signals travelling through my brain. Where is all this energy coming from? The big bang is a really shitty answer. Maybe life on earth is just the result of a sexless lonely child running through a timeless void blowing bubbles. Some of the bubbles pop and some float and drift forever in eternity to the point the bubbles themselves begin to harness new life. All hale the only god, the bubble blowing child. That's a more interesting answer.
Where do I end and where did I begin, maybe quenstions are completely futile, or maybe I am. Whatever that's suppose to mean. I still think it's true.
Wondering what to do, wondering what to say. Maybe I'll say this and accomplish both saying and doing at the same time....

Memories from the past flash through my head confusing me now. Since it is always now I must always be confused by the past. If it is always now and I always have memories from the past is it actually always the past right now. Where is the future in all this? I guess the future is really just in our imagination. Since we have experience existing for some sort of apparent time, we then have an enevitable developement of expectance for more existence to follow. So we plan for it in advanced using our imagination most of the time. Wow that is a very confusing way to put it. Anyways.....

Planning can be benefitial and at the same time ludicrous and annoying because our limited minds can't comprehend or be aware of all possibilities all at once. I guess I am saying you can try to be in control but you never will be (completely), because we are all equal (even though it may not seam like it).

I don't like to boast, sound arrogant or be to full of pride but this is an awesome place to be. I am glad I live here and I hope it gets better for us and the rest of the world. I hope we don't fuck it up. I feel bad for people around the world who suffer and feel hopelessly stuck. I try to do my part in this section of the world to maintain a balance. A balance in nature and a balance in the human experience. I am sure a lot of people would try and piss me off, argue with me and tell me how I am full of shit but that's just them being arrogant douche bags. I try! But I wish I could do more. Sadly I don't think there is more that I can do. It takes a whole civilization to make things better for everyone. Individually we can try to our best to live in the balance and that can spread globally. I think that's the way it should be though, I don't think any ONE individual should have more power then any other. That is what fucks this world up and until people stop electing leaders to make decisions for them we will never achieve absolute greatness. We have to make decisions for ourselves and take care of each other. But I guess cultures clash and war and decease is hard to avoid. But it is possible. Anythings possible.

Peace, love and Hope.

Samson

Am I a vessel controlled by the energies that surround it or one which uses these energies at will?

Beginning with a question for a title, and forgetting the words I wrote down. I wish I knew exactly what truth lies beyond realities ugly beautiful face. Not only do I wish that but I wish I knew that there even is some sort of great truth...maybe I know it and I'm still trying to find more. What I am getting at right now is that I constantly wonder if I can develope any further. Is it possible for me to break the barrier and go beyond? I don't mean anything like obtaining more physical posession, getting some sort of dream job or something like that. I often wonder if I can devolope further into reality, maybe gain some stronger extra sensory perceptions or something. Should I work on developing my consciousness or spirit...is that even possible. Do these such things even exist or are they illusions created from human desire to be more, to live and exist beyond it's physical apparatus. Is life really about fvcking, money, being greedy, selfish and posessing the latest "Cool" and/or "Trendy" things. Some people would say yes and some no I guess. Personally I'm mixed in my views of what life is actually about. When it comes down to it I would say that life isn't really about anything, and that is not suppose to be a depressing point of view at all.
When it comes down to it I just can't help but be completely paralysed to how marvelously hidden any real answers are. Everyone just has there own opinion on things and opinions always change. I kind of lost my train of thought now.


Without this body do I remain an individual or do I become a whole. I think in life we experience what its like to be fragmented, broken apart, and individualized. This experience we are all having captivates us and makes us forget over and over again, that we are a whole. When I talk to you I am talking to my self, because you are my self. There is only one self and it is universal, it is free and we all share it. We just forget and lie to our self most of the time.

Probably just to make things interesting. Maybe....maybe not

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