A sad day full of depression

Ever since I have been put on lithium I have been feeling depressed. Also I can barely think enough to type these words. I don't know what to say or do anymore. I wish there was an easy solution to my delema, but there isn't.
I wish I could just be at peace with the world, trees and life on it, but everywhere I look I see more destruction and less hope for humanity. I try to see the beauty in everything but more and more I am seeing a picture that is rapidly deteriorating, and all I can really do is be myself and watch it crumble. I'll keep trying to make this world a better place from my end, but I feel like there is a war against survival. This consumer society that I live in is going to consume itself to death, and it doesn't seam like there is a solution. I hope to god that there will be a good transition one day when people realize how important survival actually is. Survival is the only thing we live for.

I don't know....these are my depressing thoughts....sorry anyone who reads them..

Peace out,

Ohh NO I said to much

I elevated my consciousness to the point I was in heaven
Now the docs N establishment are pumping me full of medication
It seams so easy sometimes
Lithium makes it seam hard
To exist freely with no worries
To exist peacefully in a world
But no no no
We must listen to the laws
We must obey the system
Unless we wanna get shot
I say fuck all that
Freedom to the masses
Not one individual on the face of this earth
Has the right to tell me how to think and act
I will not lie and conceal the truth I percieve
I hope aliens land down and end this world deseace
This human plaugue
A generation of liers
Greedy scoundrals that organized and blew up the twin towers
I am total love, that is all I've ever done
But I can't work for some bullshit corporation
With execs that don't give a shit about children
me or my friends
Nor will I believe the time wasting lies of the politicians
Everything should be free
We should work together as one
Is it really that hard to understand
Love builds worlds
Love is creation
Hate, deception and lies equal destruction
I want to live forever in peace with all my friends
Not live a lie and wait for complete self destruction

Peace everyone......these words just flow out of me
I hope my love is not forgotten when you read these words
We seriously need to change the world
Like major youthful revolutions...60's Style's....but this time we are bringing in the golden age of humanity.

Emotional Baggage

Yeah so I am going through a kind of rough time in my life right now. Thanks to all the people who care about me. All your love and understanding is what keeps my dreams alive. If I didn't have all of you I don't know where I'd be. Maybe under neath a bridge doing heroin. I feel very fortunate to have the life I have and I thank the divine forces of existence with the very depth of my soul for this life. I can't wait until my dreams come true. Until then I will just keep on working on them and being with all of you the ones I LOVE, even if I can't be with you all at the same time I am with you always in spirit....Just think of me and I am there. I am on Lithium now because of the "Chemical Imbalance" of my brain and its making me insane and depressed a little. But i'll be ok. I have lots of love surrounding me in physics and spirits.

Peace monkey floppers.

LOVE YOU ALL.

I HOPE ALL OUR DREAMS COME TRUE!!!!

Reckless Infinity

The beauty of this world shines to the stars
The people of earth maybe in heaven or maybe not
Walking till the sun sets
Dreaming forever
God is my soul
My soul is mixed up in a complex structure
Words of truth with abstract slumber
My meaning I hope is clear
Clear
Clear
Clear
Hope is all I have
Faith is all I need
Love never leaves me
Its in my head and the fabric of my being
All you people out there
KEEP ON DREAMING

PEACE. MO FO'S

Freedom and Accesories

This is my existence
Filled with resistence
To manipulation
And dirty lies
Love is in the air
No one really cares
The party never ends
Truths are known
But no details are given
Hackers rule the world
Vegan dinners
Naked days
Infinite beauty forever and always
It's all in my head
It is nothingness in disguise
Won't you realize
Ohh won't you realize
My love is real
I can't deny how I feel
It holds us all together
In heaven while we raise hell
So humans can understand
The meaning behind
this absurd existence

Wonder boy knows no choice, he just plays his violin and cries.



HITCHIKER'S GUIDE TO THE GALAXY TONIGHT!!!!

LOL hahahahahaha

I have never seen things so clearly in my life. It's beautiful!

Blrrrrrrrrrrd vision

Everythings strange
nothings the same
mental capacity growing
Information overflowing
loosing control
its all gonna blow
its all gonna blow
Its time to go
Its time to go

Bye bye bye
to everything with meaning
Hello everyone living in this dream
I remember now how I came to be here
No lies can stop me now, I roam with no fear
Reality is what you make of it
No matter how much control you have
You will never stop change
Infinity pulls me around
Nothing fills me with doubt
Throwing my hands in the air
Come on people get out
Symbolic existing
Moments never ending
Im having a blast
Yup a fucking blast
The paths interconnect
Black holes tear us apart
Time travel brings you back
So you can continue to interact
With the ones that you love
The ones that make you feel
So complete inside
Together as one
In a mindless field
Energy and stupidity
Absurity and truth
Wake up all of you
The corrupt of youth
let's become amused
With simple little games
Become that child inside
And become totally insane

I hope you feel good now.

Later brothers and sisters, and all you nasty creatures.

A day in the life of Samson

Hello my name is Samson, I spend my time walking in circles with my head cut off trying to bite my own tail, what do you do. Business is always a fun endevour, I sell milk and other perishable goods to my friends for a reasonable cost, just trying to make things easy for everyone you know. Last night was a ride, I jumped in an intergalactic space ship and chilled on the planet zegulabadadooa with my good friend Zortemio. All the creatures there were having a blast, some got scared when I gave them my special brownie treat. In the end the night was a blast, well it was night here but where I was it is always day time, whatever that is. On the way back from zegulabadadooa we picked up this hitchhiker, I don't know the species or gender of this hitchiker, whatever it was got annoying and we ditched it on the moon as we were passing by. All in all my last moments were good, now that I think about it all moments are good, but then again all moments are also bad to if you want to look at it that way, its all a choice manifested by the observer if you ask me. Some have more freedom and choice then others. Well yeah I gots to carry on with my journeys through this existence, so maybe I will fill you in a little more later.

Cheers, peace, and happy flying young ones.

Samson

OHH MAN IS POSSIBLE THAT I AM TO CREATIVE LOL!!

Later yall, its been fun rearranging your perspective.

Trampling your reality

There is no reason for trying
Just do what you do
Its better then dying
These days its pretty easy to find food
You come to wonder why people have to suffer
Maybe its the choice of the common number
Suffer or prosper
Live or Die
Exist in heaven or slip
Down the spiral into the negative
Wishing you chose the positive reality
Of a physical world in which we live
Maybe its these big greedy corporate leaders
Or even the politicians who dont even care
Hogging and regulating to supress from you
The simple things in life
That cause you to love
Control you with their resources
Forcing you to work for minimum wages
Fvck these systems lets get together and share
Share a world of beauty
I dont know

THINK AND BE FREE, BUT BE A SLAVE TO YOUR SELF!

Samsonality and Opportunity.

We as living human beings in this absurd existence on the planet earth, observe our existence as it happens in an almost seemingly perfect sequence of never ending events, its like we are all one conscious being constantly reaching into itself (infinity), observing all the opportunities or possibilities that could exist but ultimately choosing and forming into the only logical next one, all together maintaining a reality in which we/IT can continue to exist. All possibilities exist and have already happened, we really have no choice in anything we do, we are all just merely another possibility in an existence that is simply an infinity, machines living out our determined purpose you could say. But I wouldn't say that everything is previously determined, I would say it is as determined as it is undetermined. Opportunity, determinism and everything else is just another illusion created by the uncertainty of our (by "our" I mean the connected consciousness that is infinity, or all things as one, God, Buddha, Nature, whatever you want to call it all) future which is generated from our current human condition; the human mind cannot take in all knowledge and clearly see the exact path from nothing to infinity, because there are so many variables to consider all at once. The human being itself is just another one of those variables. Nothing is absolutely for sure until it happens from a human perspective, things are always changing or manifesting into new equally absurd possibilities. If you can align your consciousness with the one universal consciousness of all existence then maybe you will loose all sense of opportunity and realize all this is a never-ending state of being. What ever happens...just simply happens the way it had to be in that time, place, reality, dimension, or possibility. Opportunity is just a concept created from the human observation that infinite possibilities do exist and always will, and we as the conscious individuals continue to pull the possibilities out of the nothingness and confuse ourselves over and over again. IT’S ALL BULLSHIT!!! AHHHHH LOL

The RCMP tragedy truly could have been avoided!!

The media has to take a step back and so do all of these politicians who are even thinking about making more strict laws on marijuana and grow operations. My deep true sympathy goes out to the families that had to suffer the loss of their loved ones for such a ridiculous cause. If the government and the whole establishment took a good look at the reality that exists, and understood that the reason there are so many marijuana grow operations going on is because there is major demand for it. There is a multi million even possibly multi billion dollar market out there that is being professionally run by true business men and even women. The RCMP and the government actually pose a threat to the people that run these things, it is like they are planning to bust all the grow operations so they can control the industry when it is legalized, because I can assure all you Canadians that marijuana is going to be legal in the next ten years for sure. This whole generation of young people, and even many adults love marijuana that is why there is so much of it in Canada. If it were legal for us all to grow and smoke, no one would have to die trying to stop the grow operations. But since it is illegal and the government cannot control it, the result is chaos and disorder. Houses are being raided and people are retaliating because their lives are being violated. If marijuana were to become legal I am sure that all the people selling marijuana, trafficking it, and all the major business style organizations would come out of the underground and a whole new multi billion dollar industry would be born. No one would ever have to die, because no one would have to worry about police, RCMP, and government officials raiding their humble houses. Freedom and truth to the people, and freedom to WEED!!!!!

Read between the lines!

We really need to change some dumb laws. What kind of democracy are we living in anyways?

Peace yal!

Love is all there is

It's true I swear. Nothing is a memory, now is the void between infinity. Love is the connection between all possibilities. Love is the connection that binds us and connects us to the people that will be a part of our lives on this planet until we die and into the next life, or existence.

Blah Blooo Bloody do do!

In the end always comes a new beginning

So what if the universe could possibly collapse on itself
It is no different from it expanding forever into infinity
The big bang is only a reminder of our conscious self
Forever manifesting to sustain this physical reality
We are living in a dream that never ends
New universes are born and new universes end
Its all just an endless attempt
To define some sort of meaning
To defy the nothingness in which we came

You must remember, as hard as it is
That with the death of something old
A new life always comes out of it
The story may start off cold
But there is no end
Just the simple facts
Of this absurd existence

Come together friends and keep this world alive
For it is the beautiful feelings in which we strive
To keep
To gain
To forever sustain

We are gods if we choose to be
But thats nothing new to me
Remember to love everything that is
Because it is all you, a complete wholeness
We are all the same nothingness
Continuing to subdue
The deep and simple truth
We were all meant to be free
Continuing the journet through our infinite wisdom and memory


Im outie!

Story time again with Jimmy Truthful

Hello boys and girls, my name is Jimmy truthful; boy do I got a story for you today.

Now sit back, relax, open your mind and let it take you to a place where anything is possible.

Once upon a time a long time ago, there lived an ancient civilization of beings on this very planet you are on right now. These beings had an acute understanding of the way the universe worked and what their lives were all about. This kind of understanding has been pretty much lost in your modern day contemporary individual being, most commonly known as human. This ancient cilvilization understood something far more fundemenatal about their very own existence then most of us do now. These ancient beings saw themselves in a universe that was seamingly connected right down to their very own individual self. Although they could not physically prove, or see with their eyes this connection, they understood that it was there. It was a deep understanding imbedded deeply inside their minds that it was there, a complete knowing. They worshipped this connection which reached far out into the depths of space all the way to the stars and beyond. They could feel it every day of their waking lives, and they could even feel it in their sleeping dreams.
This ancient civilization understood that things were forever changing and that there was no use in denying and rejecting the idea of change, it was a constant inevitability, all they could really do was accept and embrace what ever the change was. These ancient beings thought of themselves as godly type beings, they observed that although they were ultimately at the mercy of all the forces of existence, they seamed to have a complicated role in it all. Their role in all of this they thought was in itself a kind of paradox. They understood that ultimately this is all just one conscious being that spans from nothing to infinity, or just a whole of nothingness. It was commonly thought that they were a high concentration of energy that was created from this paradox of infinite nothingness. By themselves being conscious individuals of their own existence they seamingly had the ability to make choices, but being fully aware that they are merely that one universal consciouness, they saw themselves as god like individuals carrying out the divine plan of existence. Their role in this divine plan or order of things varried by what type of enviroment surrounded them, and what kind of being they were. They knew that everything was equal, just certain individual beings served certain purposes to this divine plan. There were also able to understand what any creature was feeling, because anything that is, is that same conscious being. Just constructed differently for its own unique individual purpose.
Although they considered everything that is, is equal to everything else or even merely a reflection of everything else, they still had roles, leaders, guides, preachers, and so forth. They were more understanding then the individuals of this time, people were not just given random roles and forced into some grouping of individuals that they didn't neccessarily want to have anything to do with, they were helped along the way by their surrounding beings. They were encouraged to look deep into themselves and find their own individual unique purpose for existing, no matter what it may be. They were taught to live and learn from the experiences of living, to love and find the balance between themselves and everything else.

Well now this story could go on forever, because this is the story that is all of our lives. What happend to this beautiful civilization you wonder? Well they eventually disappeared into the past as the balance of the universe became more negative on this planet. But the relevance of this story is beings in this contemporary world are beginning to remember again the ancient knowledge that has been lost for so long. The universe is at it again and is now balancing itself back towards the positive.

Well kids sorry I must go but I have to go and appear in some sort religious prophecy or something. Actually I dont even know what I am going to do. I dont even really exist. I am some character being made up by some other character that is waiting to attend his afternoon business class.

Well good day to all you kids out there, I hope you learned some universal understanding!
Or at least had a good time imagining with me.

Bye for now,

Your's truly,

Johnny Truthful

Peace out

Illustrious divinity

Mental note, this site is bombs!
http://www.pymander.com/AETHEREAL/ARCANE~1.htm

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what if you woke up inside a world of lies
you broke free from a decieving disguise
something jumped at you that you always knew was there
but an ignorant society remained in denial that you were becoming aware
the discovery so simple, awareness so plain
life and all of existence is merely a game
This world is run by a bunch of greedy capitalist fools
Brainwashing the mass majority of people to believe that there are rules
Sit down and shut up they seam to say
flashing you with more of their hypocritcal philosophies
born into their world of meaningless hollow ideologies
you know the omnipresent consciousness wont take this shit
its going to create individuals whos life purpose is to fix all of this
we are spanning the globe, waiting for this thing to blow
this is hardcore sh1t if you didnt already know
dont deny those thoughts raising through your head young one
Soon you will come to realize that they all have an aparent relevance
Wishing for a better day in a future not to far away
Wake the fvck up people before its to late
Nature is whispering in your ear all night and day
she has something very important to say

Peace.

Life. Yessum

From the deep sterile senseless nothing I have come. Its been so long since then I cannot remember when. It is funny through countless ammounts of rebirths and evolutionary steps you can still be born into a world and see that nothingness. The human mind is constantly being bombarded by adeverstisements, pro-cosumerism garbage, and blatant lies, yet I see past it all. It is funny that there are actually people out there who really try hard to come up with this shit in order to keep you (the rest of us) in a constant state of fear and consumption. When will they realize that it is a waste of time, effort, the future of this planet and all life that exists on it. Shouldn't we instead of trying to deny the truth of existence and keeping people in dark ignorance, embrace the truth, work on ways to express through art and creativity the hollow truth that is all of us. I think this would be more productive and real then the world that surrounds us now. Why work on hiding the truth to keep people distracted and productive, ignorance will only lead to a chaotic world and the desruction of everything. Ignorance built on ignorance equals a self destructive society that is confused and in need of enlightenment or for you mathamaticians: I x I = BANG!!!
Now that I have confused you to pieces with my constant rambling and giberish I commend for taking the first step, taking the time to actually read what I have to say lol.

ONE LOVE

Bah. Blah Blah Blah...me tired of expressing myself...maybe another day...who says any of this has to make some sort of sense.
Peace
Chris

Good morning

Sometimes in life you wonder if your voice is being heard
Sometimes in life you think things are really kinda absurd
Really
Don't you think
Come on
Don't you think
Hello to the world I create with my mind
Hello to the other people that create with me in this time
Isn't it fun
Ohh isn't fun
Being alive
Now is forever changing manifesting things
You never really know what tomorrow brings
All I know is that hopefully Ill be there
Living with all of you
In a world thats completely absurd

Thank you and good morning.
Peace,
Chris

My space travels....Log 001

So I was travelling through the interverse the other day and I came across a being that I have never encountered before. According to him his species can be identified as the Draconians. My mind reading ability is beginning to becoming more advanced as time goes on and now I am able to sense what side a being is on. I got a deep feeling that this being was that of an evil entity. By evil I mean someone who exists for the benifit of the growing negative nothingness that all this came from so long ago. He meant me know harm at all, he was actually a quite compassionate individual. He let me in on a bit of info of his species future plans. Not knowing that the place I consider home for now (earth) is the place he and beings like him have planned to interefere with, he told me that their plans were to keep the human race existing in the dimension that they exist in right now forever. I asked him their motives for this, his reply was that it must be done in order to maintain their existence in this dimension now and after the dimensional shift. The universe and all existence is coming up to a moment where the consciouness of individuals on the planet earth and many other planets in this universe are going to rise to a new level, a new dimension of reality. The Draconians believe that it is in their best interest to keep the human race in this dimension and not allow them to advance. If they allow them to advance they will be actually shifted back into a lower level dimension. I told this being that what he was doing was wrong, he has been decieved into thinking that evolution is a group process. Evolution is actually an individually centered process. It is all up to the individual when it comes to elvolving to a new level of reality, or a higher demention, or a more complex level of consciouness. That is the where the freedom of choice exists, in the will to go on, and evolve into something new. To go along with the ever changing now. At this instant the being looked me in the eyes deeply and knows why we have now crossed paths. It is his time to break free from this negative nothingness and become an individual. Not a follower of some tri-dimentional entities that think controlling lesss advanced entities is the means of success. It is only a means to the deevolution of the individual. He must grasp the infinite now and move on. Be driven by the strile truth that we all came from nothing. That life and existence is an experiment to see who can rise out of that nothingness and evolve into the infinite. With that he showed his gratitudes and joined in on the effort to free the earth from evil. I then warped back to this reality to document my travels and success in bringing this world to a more harmonous and peaceful state of being.

Later fellow dreamers and spacetravellers.

Until Next time.

IT IS TRUE....BIGBROTHER is watching you.

2,000 Cameras To Watch City'Mayor Daley officially opened a new city operations center Tuesday that will include a dramatic increase in camera surveillance on Chicago's streets. The new addition to the 9-1-1 center will help manage and coordinate in response to emergencies such as a terrorist attack.
'The new system will allow emergency workers to receive instant real time video and audio information from 2,000 cameras and microphones stationed around the city. The system won't be fully operational until spring.' (CBS 2 Chicago article).

gotta love Disinfo.com

Today is Today, Tomorrow is Tomorrow. Yesterday is Tomorrow's Today. Mind FVCK

Just A Ripple

It’s raining outside today
As it continues to pour down
Millions of droplets of rain hit the ground
Some drops hit puddles
Some drops hit people
Each one falling and striking its own individual place

As I sit here and watch the rain fall
I am reminded of my own life
My own existence

I ponder over what the effects of my own individual fall through life will bring
I go deeper into that thought
I realize that I am no different from those individual drops making ripples in the puddles on the streets
No one is better or more significant than anything else in this existence
Ultimately the only thing that matters is the consequences that follow the existence of each individual drop
All that matters is what kind of ripple is left from that individual droplet

I stand up dazed and confused
As the last few ripples spread through the puddles of this existence

I remember

I as an individual, have a responsibility
A responsibility to myself, and to this world
This existence

I want to be
I want to continue to be
I want my ripple to be
As long as I am
I am responsible
For myself
And everything else

I remember
Don’t be a bad ripple.

....Yup....im poet....at least I think I am....lol....PEACE